i'm sorry

i'm sorry
you say i say it too much
and mean it not
but i do
more than you'll ever know
and i would say it over
and over and over again
if only it would make a difference
but you say it doesn't.
still i say
i'm sorry.
because there's no other way.
all i have are those words.
i cannot bring back
the times i didn't hold your hand
when you needed me
i was busy
trying to save the world.
i'm sorry.
i didn't change, you see.
i grew up
you didn't change.
and there lies the problem
i needed you
to grow up with me
but it isn't your time yet
and i can no longer
wait for you.
i wish you knew i did my best
that i held on
for all it was worth
but loving you means losing me
and i could not do that
any longer.
i need to be
the person i want to be.
you loved me
when no one else did
and you showed me
how to love
selfishly and selflessly
all at once.
i love you
truly
with all my heart
and i understand
if you think it is a lie.
but i can't hold your hand anymore
you need to grow up now.
and be the man
that i know you can be.
i believe in you.
with all my heart.
i haven't given up on you
and i never will.
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry