Eureka

Eureka moments are those crystal clear insights and revelations that come like lightning on a sunny day. And when they hit, they hit hard.

I want to be an anesthesiologist. From out-of-the-blue, that thought came. Unbidden. Unexpected. Totally off-track. Crazy. Perhaps it has been smouldering in the hazy areas in my head, forming slowly, bidding it's time.

When I was a little kid, I wanted to be a pediatrician. And then came Grey's Anatomy and I wanted to be a surgeon. Then for the past few years, I decided on a career on Internal Medicine, Cardiology in particular. Invasive Cardiology. I have never, ever, considered going into anesthesiology. Never. Not until that Eureka moment, two days ago.

So I may have been influenced by one of my favorite fictional character, Arase, the brilliant anesthesiologist of Iryu Team Medical Dragon, and my favorite blogger, Michelle Au, who revealed that anesthesiologists get to wear scrub suits to work everyday. Is that not the coolest thing ever?

I could picture out Mama rolling her eyes when I told her over the phone. My father was skeptic. Bo was supportive. My sister said it was a great idea because anesthesiologists earn a lot of money. *insert me rolling my eyes*

For the record, I'm not in it for the money, although I'd appreciate the bucks when they come. I need to feed my future family, after all, and have extra cash to buy all the books I want to read.

Why anesthesiology? Because, for a klutzy, timid, no-guts person like yours truly, the idea of being able to do all the cool things like intubating and sticking needles into people's spines and keeping them alive throughout the operation, is both amazing and fulfilling.

I may sound superficial but I'm not really. Anesthesiology has got my blood singing. For the first time in a long while, I am excited again. And that "What the heck am I doing in med school?" feeling is gone. Anesthesiology is an incredibly challenging, demanding field. And that's what I want to do for the next thirty years or so of my life. (Aside from all the other important stuff like having a family and working on my au sem mau and salto and mariposa.)

Good luck to me!

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